bsumone | ❝ Earth is strung with lovers’ pearls ❞

"You guys don't talk about feelings a lot right? It's more action over words? That could have been it. You expressing feelings for someone else was what he heard first so his mind couldn't process who it was until you told him."

He didn't know the guy but that made sense to him. Especially for someone as strongly emotional as that incubus seemed to be from Su-jin's descriptions. They'd probably never meet but it was always something he noted when he heard stories about him.

Huh. He wondered what Tiras thought about him in turn. Obviously something good if he had no problem with Su-jin seeing another as long as it was him.

"That was a huge risk you took coming down here while I was feral. I could have really hurt you..."

A quiet hum answered Silvio's comments about Tiras. That made sense, in a way. Su-jin rarely confided details of his friendships with Tiras either, but he's heard much about Silvio. Perhaps that's why he accepted that it was him. Well, whatever was going through Tiras' head and heart might remain mysterious, but Su-jin was just glad that everything was working out smoothly.

"I trust you."

And, well, he was pretty sure he could heal fast enough to avoid being eviscerated by a lone wolf. Maybe.

Okay, sure, it was risky.

"It's important to me that you know you can trust me, too, when you're not thinking clearly. I had to try."

And if he'd failed? He told Tiras he'd be gone for a week. If he didn't come back, he's positive Tiras would do something about that.

"You're insane..."

But he meant that with the greatest admiration. It was completely insane to have done what Su-jin did and yet he had. He was here with him after a night of the full moon with his lap holding Silvio's head.

Tears fell past the cloth as the emotions overwhelmed him. He was in complete awe of his mate and what a big heart he had.

He threaded his fingers through Silvio's hair, just another physical reminder that Su-jin was there, that he wasn't going anywhere.

"I don't want you to be alone if you don't have to be. So, no chains tonight, okay? I'll be here with you."

"Yeah. No more chains."

He let out a laugh and then a shaky breath. Fuck, he felt better than he had...in a long time. Even with his eyes on fire and needing to recover from the silver chains. "But um...since I'm going to recognize you as my mate if you don't want to...you know...I get it. You can shove me off."

While he was a wolf he meant. If he didn't want to fuck while he was a wolf.

For a few seconds, Su-jin was perplexed by what Silvio meant. But once the understanding settled in his face went hot. He'd never considered that before and... Well, it's certainly something he's never tried before. The logistics of it began to roll around in his head. Would he need to make sure he was prepared beforehand? Probably. And it would probably be clear when Silvio wanted him.

Su-jin's throat felt tight when he answered. "I don't mind." It's something he's never done, so he's not about to shoot the idea down without experiencing it first. If it turned out it wasn't for him, they could address that going forward.

He would have blinked if it weren't for the wet towel over his eyes. But he did tilt his head toward where he knew Su-jin's head to be. For a moment, he was quiet. And then he let out a happy but also teasing laugh.

"I should remember you're kinkier than you act because you've been with an incubus for centuries."

Definitely blushing at being teased.

"I'm really not... It's just... I'm open-minded."

"Open-minded implies you don't mind hearing about it. Kinky means you're down to do it. Just to let you know."

Silvio laughed and gave a poke to his side. In pain or not, he was always going to love teasing Su-jin.

So rude! Su-jin just huffed at the teasing -- maybe enjoying it just a little.

"Is that something you've done before... with a person while you're a wolf?"

"No. I have with a packmate when we were both wolves though. It's a very different experience but it feels good."

Silvio wasn't about to shy away from admitting these things to Su-jin. Even though he was much quieter about his preferences, he wasn't shy about them. He knew what he liked and he knew that when he was with someone he cared about that he was ready to do those things and even experiment.

"I'll like trying it with you. Even if it'll be the animal me."

"It's still you. That's all that matters to me." Su-jin was willing to try this because he cared so deeply for Silvio. His dear wolf. His fingers combed gently through Silvio's hair and he gave a gentle smile. "I'll make sure I'm ready for you tonight."

"Now I know I'm going to jump you with you smelling like that." He laughed a bit but seriously that meant a lot to him that Su-jin not only didn't mind but that he wanted to. That as long as it was him he wanted to give it a go. It was amazing really. The perfect kind of mate for him.

"I love when you smile," he said then, hearing the movements of his face and knowing what it meant. Still, he lifted his hand to trace the man's features so he could paint what that looked like in his head.

"Do you?" That only made the smile grow. "Can you imagine my face?"

"I like to try sometimes. Even if I'm not sure if I'm even close to accurate it's fun trying." It passed the time when Su-jin wasn't around. He liked trying to form a picture of him in his head, even though he knew it probably would never be the man's actual face since he had no idea what anyone in the East looked like.

"As long as you like what you imagine." He valued his looks, mostly because of Tiras. No doubt Silvio imagines him as someone he finds handsome since they have an attraction. His smile softened and he continued threading his fingers through Silvio's hair. "I think about you a lot when I'm not here. It's so much better now that we're close and I can come visit you more often."

"I know how fussy you are about your looks. I promise I find you very handsome." Lowering his hand again, he smiled softly. So Su-jin thought about him a lot when they weren't together. So that meant... "Do you think about your other when you're not with him? It's alright if you do. I'm just curious."

"I'm not with Tiras 24/7," he explained. "I actually have a job, too. Though I can do a lot of my work from home, we're apart enough that it's easy to think about you both." Su-jin pressed his lips together in thought. "I wonder what he's doing to pass the time when I'm here, but... Yes, I do think about him. But I try to keep my focus on you when we're together like this. What we have, you and I, it's softer, more affectionate."

"Yeah I gathered that what we have is different based on how you talk about him." Which wasn't a judgement at all. It was just interesting that his relationship with Su-jin was so different than the one Su-jin shared with Tiras. It was like his mate was living two completely different but beautiful lives. And, as long as his mate was happy, he was happy for him.

Silvio smiled up at him. Even if he didn't have a cloth over his eyes he still wouldn't be able to see him but that had never mattered to him. He could always see this man's heart. "I love what we have, by the way."

It really was like living two different lives. Maybe that's why Su-jin loved it so much. Two very different people who loved in two very different ways, both of which satisfied his emotional needs.

"I do, too. I'm so happy that you wanted to be with me."

"Still want to too. You're really amazing, Su-jin." He loved him so damn much. Yeah, Su-jin had really saved him in a lot of ways, ways he wasn't even sure that his mate fully understood. But, he could just make sure to keep showing him each and every day for the rest of their lives until the man could believe in himself. He was happy to do that.

Su-jin chuckled. He probably didn't understand. He didn't know what the true attachment was between a pack. He was only glad that he could fill some void in Silvio's life. Even if they had only remained friends, knowing the wolf wasn't alone anymore brought Su-jin some peace.

"That's fortunate since, I'm afraid, you're stuck with me now. I don't let go easily."

"You're my pack now, Su-jin. You'd have to try very, very hard to get rid of me."

Because it took something major to cause someone to be able to break the bond a pack had. True it wasn't typical for a pack to include those who weren't wolves in it but it wasn't completely unheard of. After all, packs were known to do what his did and adopt outside races. In the end he'd become a wolf himself but he knew that wasn't an option for Su-jin and that was alright. He was happy to have him as he was.

Su-jin exhaled slowly. He pressed his fingers to his lips, then brushed them against Silvio's. It was too difficult to lean down and kiss him properly with the wolf's head on his thighs.

"I take that bond seriously, Silvio. And I always will."

He heard the kiss and the sound of his arm moving and knew what was coming. For that reason, he lifted his head up so that way he could press his lips to the incoming delivery with a smile.

"Thanks. That means a lot."

Finally, he slowly tried to get himself sat up. It was slow going since his body would require another day to fully heal from the silver burns, slowed way down by how it was fighting the silver trapped in his eyes. "...shit..." he groaned but still moved, catching the cloth as it fell. "Help me get upstairs? We can bathe together."

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