"You don't have to appease me, Matthias. If we're only ever friends then I'll be happy still. As long as I can be with you then it's enough for me."

Because it was better than not having Matthias at all. Better than having his heart ache for him and never getting to see him. To laugh and smile with him. To see how he relaxed when he played with his hair. Or how comfortable it was to know he was there while slept.

Sam knew that it was like living off of droplets of water in a desert and yet...

And yet he didn't want to stop.

"I live with so many regrets in my life that I worry being lovers with you while knowing I'll never have your heart will give me the one regret that will destroy me. I can't bring myself to do that knowing that you enjoy being able to feed off of me. Though I've dreamed of being with you that way..." Sam sighed and shook his head. "I'm content as I am."