It’s been such a long time since he left the people who hurt him and the places that remind him most keenly of that hurt behind. Even the vast expanse of years between then and now and Simon’s still trapped there. Less hesitant only because the deep loneliness he felt and a few drinks.

Well, that in addition to his very strong attraction to this stranger. Attraction that’s only growing the more time they spend together. Not only is John handsome and charming, but it felt like his control was subtle. Like he wasn’t going to make Simon feel like an inexperienced partner. He’s not wholly inexperienced, but John’s not doing anything to make him feel self-conscious about what he lacked.

Oh, but he melted into that kiss. Whatever worried that usually gnawed at him were quiet, easily forgotten as their lips met and Simon closed the distance between them. The skin-to-skin contact made him shiver and a quiet whine bubbled up in Simon’s throat.